She slammed the book closed, glanced at the irritating red glare of the digital clock warning that in a moment her stomach would knot up with that 4am indegestion, and threw those damn pages against the wall.
Do you ever have a moment like these? You know, you've stayed up all night reading a book just to hate it by the end?
This is what every author dreads. And as I put my indie baby, Creating Fate, into the world, this is what I woke up this morning thinking? Gah, what if they hate it? Seriously, it's 4:30 am on a Saturday morning, and I'm worried about this.
But, is it a bad thing that I'm worried? No, it's a great thing! It means that I'm emotionally invested in this book and it's been a while since I felt like this. So, I'm glad to have that feeling back. I'm supposed to feel this way.
Artists of any nature have a perfectionist mentality--in my opinion--and letting their babies meet the world is the hardest thing. So many insecurities, concerns, and ideas go through your head when you are letting a little piece of yourself go. And, I don't think there is author out there that doesn't put a little piece of themself in every story.
So, as I sit here writing this, waiting for the blood to circulate through my vamp body, I wonder if I'm the only author that wakes up before the alarm on sleep-in mornings thinking about these things. I doubt that I am and I look forward to hearing from the others that do. I promise you, they're out there.
Last week was crazy here and I didn't get near as much done as I'd like, so other than the occasional guest post or update, you probably won't see or hear much from me this month. I'm getting ready for the mega release of Creating Fate. :) I hope you have a wonderful first part of the summer and look me up on FB or Twitter. I'm usually around, lol.
Gah, you read my mind, woman! I sent EXHALE out to reviewers this week, and I have this sinking dread in my gut, constantly churning. I am *so* worried about how it will be received, especially since the ending is very...intense. Will they hate it? Yep. At least some people will. They always do. I'm trying to get that through my head so I can mentally prepare myself for when the bombs drop. Because they will, and there will be *a lot* of hate. As an author, I have to learn how to deal with it and move on.
ReplyDeleteKeep your chin up. Think positively. You are an AWESOME writer! I can't wait to see what you and your partners in crime have whipped up!
Thanks, girl. I have no doubt that Exhale will be just as great as Inhale. :)
Delete*hugs* It's a great story! Don't stress, Rachel. Your fans will love it! :)
ReplyDeleteYou're not alone Rachel!!! I worry every time I just email a book to my editor!!! LOL I worry and wonder if she hates it and doesn't know how to tell me! LOL Let alone, readers and reviewers! Yikes! :)
ReplyDeleteSo you're not alone... But I bet this book is going to rock!!!
Hang in there!!!
*HUGS*
Lisa :)